I sat on the white sandy beach one night in July. I had watched the sunset and the full moon rise. The wind kissed my cheeks and tangled my hair. I listened to the waves crash onto the shore and God started speaking. I don't know about you, but when I hear God speaking I start listening. A few weeks before this I had asked God one of the most basic questions of Christianity, "If you are true, why is tragedy as well?" A few weeks later He responded in a way that would forever change me. “The tragedy in the world is not mine, but I have overcome it. My children have created the sin in this world, yet I will clean it up. Look what I have made. Focus on me. I have created the sand, the palm trees, and the oceans.” We often blame God for war, but we are the ones fighting. We often blame God for broken and hurting relationships, but we are the broken and hurting ones in them. We blame God for what WE have created and do not give Him nearly enough for what He has.
I want to start off by saying how madly, head-over-heels, incredibly in love God, our father, Abba, Daddy, whatever you want to call Him, is with you. He loved you from your very first breath and will love you until your very last. He knew your heart before you were born and is on an endless mission to captivate you as much as you captivate Him. The God who created this Earth, who can move mountains, who can turn water into wine, who can wipe out the Earth in one word is lovesick over you. He loved you before you knew Him and will keep on loving you no matter how many times you disappoint Him because He is that good of a God.
Isn't it absolutely mind-boggling to think that such a vast God chooses to make a home right in your heart! With this glorious source of strength in us, we must live a life in reckless abandon for God. This starts by knowing that God is with us in all that we do. No matter how minimal the task He is concerned with every detail of our lives. He is a luminous veil of light, bringing it to everything around us, showing us the clear path.
However, sometimes we feel distant from God. We start sinning and we don't feel bad about it. Guess what, you're not supposed to. Sin is supposed to feel good. You aren't supposed to feel bad doing it. The enemy wants you to feel good for going against God. I don't know what you have done or will do, but God does. What I do know is that whatever you are doing that you know is a sin but don't feel bad for doing it, is hurting your relationship with God. You were perfectly designed to connect with Him. He will always feel it, but unfortunately, you won't. And the more you do what you know is wrong even if you don't feel bad for doing it the farther you will get away from where God wants you.
Because He loves you so immensely He refuses to let you stay where you are at.
God is not meant to be discovered. He is meant to be pursued, to be loved, to be worshiped, and to be discovered is just a byproduct of these things. Discover by definition means to find (something or someone) unexpectedly or in the course of a search.
God is confusing, these wordily restraints on my mind don't allow me to see the perfect way that He is making. I am limited by time, while time is a slave to His majesty. Like Paul says, I can be chained, I can be bound down, and I can be rooted to one spot, but the word of God cannot. John 1:1 says, In the beginning, was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. God cannot be chained.