So many people go through life simply just existing. Just another person in a crowd of a million people. I don't want to do that. I want people to know I exist. I want to make such an impact on someone, just at least one person, where they know how much God loves them. I want to live my life fearlessly and relentlessly all for God's glory. I want to exist as a role model for some girls at my church who may not have someone in their life to look up to. I want to exist to show someone hope in a seemingly hopeless situation. I want to exist to let people know how truly important, loved and impactful they are. I want to exist to point back everything I do to the creator, the God of the Heavens and the Earth, the God that made mountains,waterfalls, and the stars. My daddy, my creator, the God of all nations.
This still doesn't really answer the question though, what does it mean to exist. The basic definition of existing is to take up space, or matter, to be present. But it's so much more than that. Romans 12:2 helps us out with coming up with a definition,"So here’s what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity, God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you." Basically what this is saying is live a life free of conformity to things of this world and to offer your life over to God. To me to exist means to live life to the fullest, and personally I don't think you can live life to the fullest if you are living basically, meaning just getting by, doing what everyone else is doing, you must hand your life over to God. God calls us to live life unafraid of what others say about us because the only opinion that matters is His.
So existing, its different for everyone. Everyones got their own definition. Existing to me means living fearlessly for God, even if your opinion isn't the popular one. Stand up for what you believe in, even if you are standing alone. It will inspire someone. Lately I've been feeling, I don't know how to explain it, but just different I guess, but not in a good way. Like people think I'm weird different. But God has rewarded me for my braveness to be able to stand out even if I feel alone. He has rewarded me in the fact that I have inspired the youth in my church. The kids who are standing on a fence. They could go one way or another. God wants me to exist to show them the right way, the fruitful way, the way that might not be easy, but it sure is worth it. So I hope this inspires you. YES YOU! The kid who doesn't think they can do anything right, the person who is to afraid to stand out and be different for once, the man who being luke warm in his faith, the woman who lives life in a systematic way every day, doing the same things over and over and over again. Step out in your faith, step out of the boat. Truly and fully exist.